air port – i couldn’t admit to anything i couldn’t stand to lie i’m not doing nothing walk with that when you die i couldn’t stop shaking my head and crying won’t help don’t tell me that i can’t tell myself and i wander to the airport and take all my pills and walk the runway with a hundred dollar bills and its cold out tonight and i have no comfort i have no drink no food i’ll sleep at the airport remember when i said i would stay and the rain on my face and we didn’t sleep that day and i started to pray and i saw a light in the sky and blood in my eyes and all of my lies cover you in boils death will never come and life is gone away i’m laying on chairs full of pills in my head i’m laying on chairs pretending i’m dead i’ll step in to the sky and never say good bye and i’ll miss everything and i’ll miss the way you sing and i touch you one last time you almost let me one day i’ll be coming home from the everything i was and burning under my skin he looks down at the sea he looks like he could be me one day i’ll be coming home. suicide cult – i’ve given up on trying to sleep i’ve been on a caffeine high for a week i can’t function in this place i can’t understand the human race i changed my clothes in your car while you were driving to the bar and i threw up all your toads and you left me on the road i think i’ll join a suicide cult beg the christians to try me out and wait for hours in your yard slit my throat from ear to ear lifeless body taken away i’ll be given new life some day they are the ones who understand the reasons behind my plan you lick my wrists on sunday night i know i’m wrong cuz you are right we line up to get our food she says she’s in such a good mood touch her while you still can because you are the industry man your pants are so tight you can’t breath the room is too hot for you to leave. search for the tree of reason - and i’m standing here waiting for death in this broken down road and my head is a mess and where was the tree when i needed it most and i’m going insane waiting for post and if i get there i don’t know what i’ll do but i’ll cut off my legs if i don’t find you soon and if it was you who walked a thousand miles in my boots you would die a thousand times and you would dig up my roots and you sit there with nothing and i’m out here the same i’m searching forever for my sick little game and i’m walking forever and three sticks go by and no lizards in the road will stop my eyes and you can cut me down and salt my earth and stop me from dreaming cuz that what i’m worth i search for the tree the tree in my head because where was god when i need to be dead and now i’m laying still on my cold metal bed waiting for nothing the nothing in my headthe tree is never mine i’m running out of time…. the tree is never mine i’m running out of time…. you're built for me – so i was living in a tree i was me and i didn’t see you five days have past since last time i saw your face fucking jesus where’d you go looking around looking at the show don’t know why you smell so good gonna find you if i could you know me i’m right here you can cum my sweet dear you never know where i’m gonna be i think i might be in me give me all your fucking pants dance with me and i’ll come home meow i will come to your window climb up see what’s in inside you i know you your sleeping in my fear the bedroom it’s red now i know your eyes are open i’m looking and waiting where the hell did you go fucking god damn you now give me all that you saw give me your fucking pants and dance and i will come home i dance with the puppets you know that it’s rupert’s i know you’ll come home dear i know your built for me. broken girl – in no uncertain way can i say that everything i touch goes away i hate so much my skin feels so cold but not as cracked as i am old i never know what i need to say to make all the bad things go away i hurt you and destroy you to no end and every morning i expect you my friend i don’t deserve the things i have the things i do were never that if i could just see two feet in front of me a happy boy is what i’d be i rent a car to leave my life from time to time i send a card to my sweet wife i wish you were here i need something the cats never stop my hate they just run and hide under things i’d take something to slow me down but i take the car to a different town root beer floats and candy bars jason montgomery where are you now what did you see that none of us could who was on the phone that only you could use but i digress with my mad rant about memories and forgotten pants i’ll never know why i’m so slow at understanding why you go so far away from the land we live and of all these things this is what i give: a plant that i will never keep alive a shoe with no sister she didn’t survive and empty box of popcorn i was hungry while i wait and the kiss that i sold at the castle’s gate all these things mean little to you but they’re the world to me i tell you it’s true i’m the one who broke my girl i’ll never forgive myself. slice – i’ve been writing books for dead children i read them all the time last night i slept on your front lawn cuz that is gone you make me want to gouge my eyes out and i’m gonna laugh at you give me something i can do give me something just from you i need a box to put all the things i’ll never use again in cuz maybe one day i will slice open my head and you’ll fall out maybe one day when i will pray for the end of time maybe we will make a rhyme and live on the moon and eat nothing, nothing but fun times nothing but fun times for me and you i’m sick to death i’m gonna die i think my health is so bad i want a cigarette and i’ll blow it in your face because today is the last day i’m gonna see this place cuz you know that i’m the bottle man pick me when you can the bottle man i’ll open up the drawer look inside for something more just a little touch of the flu you know it’s what i’ll give to you. the dead fish symbolizes everything wrong with my life – you know me you see me love the street you are sweet so far away need you today please come with me please stay with me stay with me tonight please sleep with me sleep with me my love tonight it’s alright my love tonight waiting for the rain – there she was just a chimney log sitting on the street with the boneless leg dog staring at the moon with the look in her eye she never understood why this was goodbye walk through the headstones on broken down legs looking for the boy who used to sell eggs she forgot the song it’s been so long wishing for the rights to all become wrong wipe off all the rain all around her eyes remembering the days and listening to pies our fence was black in the road trip of doom it will soon be over and we will be there soon never forget the hand that covered up your eyes and never forget the man who crawled up deep inside and the baby duck is empty with a taste that just won’t die and the kite that i built you it just won’t fly and curled up in your mouth and licking the strawberries off she sits with you and waits and she feels so very soft while i’m sleeping in an ally waiting for the rain you’ve climbed up my tree laughing with out pain. save me – i smelled you, you smell so go and i touch you and it was what i could do please forgive me i’m not feeling like my self tonight i can’t understand why i’m a man and all that i can do is give to you all the things i’ve been sworn not to do give me a chance to understand all the things i am all the things i am are shit i know that you are something i’d love to see in a ballerina dress with a man who’s got a beard down to his knees oh please understand the reason why i’m gonna die tonight thinking about all the things i can’t do any more i am so tiered of listening to doubt about me i’m so wasted tonight i can’t fight away the things you say please comfort me you can’t can yo,u you smell like all i need tonight i can’t sleep i need to be alone with the one i love sitting in a small town with a man he tells me what’s right and wrong he knows my plan place me on your stool you know it’s okay spinning around in my house of blood and kittens… save me… zombie boy – i don’t think i can stand to look at another human again they smell so bitter sickly sweet i used to live on the street taken away and bound up tight lick your eyes in the middle of the night freshly shaven lunar girl plays kick the can in my world he lives in a car and eats tofu now here is what she’s gonna do start up fires in your world hate the way you tell me to read that box of cracker jacks i’ll do what you tell me to do you’re dripping all over my floor tie you up and you’re dripping more i love you when you talk to me i’ve given up on every thing kiss my hair and go to sleep jenny’s softly counting sheep it’s the end for me tonight zombie boy is just out side spinning gold with baby’s heads selling all my kids for bread. chinese rain – if i ate your body whole i’d fall in an endless dream i’d walk along jubilee street on boots that run on steam i’d pull up a chair for you you’d never come home again i’d fill you full of pirate fish and then i’d stand up on your head please water me my eyes are dry i care about your machines they are strong you say in chinese rain all that matters now is gravel filling up my boots crawling on the ground the frog man standing tall i spent a week on jubilee street just to get away from you i found myself a brand new hat and ate some whiskey stew please water me with chinese rain and fill my boots with sand tear me down with chinese pain deport me from your hands. well that’s it now. jenny’s step – when jenny walks out of her house she stands on the step and opens her mouth she sees what’s outside the grass and a hill and she makes no sound and she stands still and the day goes on with mouth open wide with nothing out here and nothing inside and the sun goes down and jeremy comes home and he looks at jenny with her eyes of nothing shake her he says to the man in his head but he knows he can’t and he can’t go in and the night is long on jenny’s step and the hill is black and so is her head because there’s nothing in jenny’s eyes the way she looks out at that hill is really no surprise when nothing happens any more and nothing ever will it’s time that jeremy said no, no sleep in weeks no food or drink a mind full of drugs over flowing in the sink stop it forever is a thing for that and the neighbors don’t come by but they don’t have a cat something died on jenny’s steps and it will never come back not the way it was she turns to jeremy to say i’m going in but it’s okay i’ll be here again tomorrow. creep (fuck rock an roll) – i’ve just got two hours left all i can do is hope and pray one day you will become a real girl, one, never mind what i say today never let me go the rain the rain on your boots feel it never needing anything thank you so much one day hope and pray one day you’ll become a real girl save you from what i do never know how to stop the rain please let me sleep tonight fuck rock an roll fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck rock an roll fuck it all never fall down hate so much touch me touch fuck rock and roll safe. boneless – and the rain will stop soon and this day will end too and we’re dripping with water and spinning in puddles and i have never needed it more than today when you have gone away with nothing to say and my bag is my kingdom but i’m not the king i’m useless and bloody and a wreck of a mess one last time to say it and you walk away one last day to be here but you know i can’t stay i’m losing your battle and i can’t stand up and when i first started i was given one cup and i used it forever and today forever ends and i’m crooked and nothing and i’m no one’s friend i smash up my knees and loose all my sight and the rain is dying and so is the night now i’m beaten and covered in everyone’s blood in a white room with nothing boots covered in mud it’s time for surgery to fix all my faults they will take me, create me, and make me their own slice down my chest no anesthetic you say my insides are out on a rainless godless day it takes forever and now forever ends with me on the table i’m less than a man and this is what you need to keep me alive no rain and no me and nothing inside i feel me going paler and there’s nothing to do and there’s nothing for me when there’s nothing for you. the town fair – the man sits on the train he’s looking at the sky red is the name i use for him he’s coming home tonight and i think its alright to stare at his shoes leather and cotton and all you do coming home coming home to the town fair he’ll meet you there beg for you to come op[en the sky cracker jack eye blessing the ground with all we found so far away today it’s a tragedy how he has to be the last one out the gates tonight up high kissing the sky blessing the moon with the look in your eye the town fair he’ll meet you there it’s the last night you’ll ever know end of days are sure to give all that you need bless him and his greed for he is the one who sings songs he is the one who’s gone tonight final trip home i can’t understand why you sit and spit at him lets take a tour go to school of life and death and i am all you want please stop me town fair last one out of the gates i hate everything stop the way i’ve got to get off the carousel, carousel please stop it now too much for me to take last train home to the town fair bless him and all he’s done for you i am nipping at the heels of the metal man begging him as much as i can please let me off it’s going too fast take all my clothes away spit on my face give me a reason not to go home. 
the town fair 2003

One window – I’m sitting against the wall I know now that I can’t fall one window to look outside to see all my friends who died. All three standing on the hill begging me to take my pills and in the corner where he lay out from surgery yesterday. Sitting in my small room with myself all the things I need on my shelf, only a guess to what’s outside every single person in my life has lied. Hold my head with my hands hearing songs from different land never knowing what is true, never knowing what to do. You sit with me for a bit but we all know how you can’t sit boneless leg dog barks at me no one will just let me be. Support Group – There’s a sign on the door that says support group, within the room Cindy is the moderator. There are four people sitting in chairs around her. Cindy is just glaring at one of them, it’s a horrible look for her. ”This is out support group right?” “Yes” “Well what are you supporting us for?” “You just need some fucking support, that’s all.” “A moment of silence falls over the room. “Can I talk about my problems now?” “No, just sit there and be quiet.” He replies that he is going to be leaving soon. “You’ll never get help if you give up.” “Well why do we have to give you so much money if we aren’t even going to speak?” “I have something better than words, I have something that will solve all your problems, I have support.” Cindy goes around the men and puts blindfolds on all of them. She leaves the room and comes back holding the home made pet dog, with the baby’s head. She hands it to the first man, they pass it around, looking at it, and touching it. “Can you feel the dog? It doesn’t feel like a dog, does it. Would you like to know why? No hair. You are dismissed.” They get up and take their blindfolds off and start to leave the room. The first man stops at the door. “Thank you Cindy, are you a prophet?” Cindy laughs. “No, but I’m not bald either.” I can’t speak for you, I can’t speak against you I need to keep you inside my hat. Where the children play, they play their games, they sing along to the songs I hate. My twitch has stopped, I need my medication. I seen the puppy turned inside and out. And there she was, with a face like glass. She started it all but it will pass. I tightened my pants and did up my boots, and there was nothing that I couldn’t be. Beautiful world – I drove in on the back of a truck, a truckload of babies and cream. And I rode out on the top of a train that runs on baby’s cream and steam. And you rolled out of the top of a can, and pledged allegiance to my flag. And you rolled over when you were dead, and I wrapped your body in thrift store rags. and I seen your son stumble around with his one leg one eyed, one toothed smile. And Lisa bought me a brand new dress, and I wore it and I tore it, and she wasn’t impressed. I mold a special girl out of new wave plastic, I dug up your kitten and I gave her it’s brain. In an underground laboratory she smiled six times, then I cut her throat and she died from the pain. As I rolled down the dirt road looking for booze, you kicked my head and spit in my gas spout. Eaten alive by crocodile’s offspring, you told me to shut my defecating mouth. We went to a disco with a bag of guns, we handed them out and said go have your fun. We were shot in the head fifty plus times, and we boarded that train for the gulf of St.Mines. It’s a beautiful world and your sister’s in the truck, we’re gonna bash her in the head. Crowded Hallways – I have my hands over my eyes, you won’t see me ‘till you lie. I wash myself with your dust, I know that you are the one I trust, take me from here, no please don’t go, you are going too fast, I go too slow. You have your hands over your eyes, I won’t see you ‘till you die. You wash your self with my blood, you know I am the one you trust. Take you away, no keep you close, you are going to fast, I go too slow. I am hiding. You can’t see me. I won’t come out. You won’t touch me. I am alone. Crowded Hallways. I will stay here. Almost always. Arbor Day – I am walking, to the harbor, you know it’s arbor day today. I’m gonna fish for a tree, give it to you, just like me. I’m walking through the branches, you know the chances that I’ll meet you. I give you everything you want in life. I’m gonna blow out your birthday candles next year, there’s nothing you can do except for look on in fear, this is the best day of your life. My fingers are sticky, I smoke way too much, but you know I love it and it’s beautiful, and there’s nothing I really need to touch, because the kittens are moldy tonight. I think your alright, you know there’s nothing better for a girl like you than to flip my skirt up over my head, she said. You know I’m gonna tell you the story of your life. It goes on and on and on and I said to her just shut up, that’s nothing I need to hear right now. I’ll just come in for a drink, and I’ll be leaving by ten. Three days have passed and I haven’t moved an inch. And I’m stumbling and I’m sticky still and you know that I would kill just to walk back home in my own boots, and I’m out of breath, this is my death… tonight. Home (summer solstice) – Sometimes I walk this way, sometimes I like to stay, it flies with giant wings, and I wish that it could sing. Sitting with you on a sunny day, sitting with you and you will stay. Sometimes it rains a lot, sometimes it’s very hot, I laugh at the things you say, and I laugh when I pretend to pray. Sitting with me and I grow cold, sitting with me I feel so old. Every day I walk for hours. I just managed to wash up when the bell rang telling me to stop listening to the radio the music would stay in my head for ever I burnt the house down where it all happened and tore out all the pages in my diary. Sometimes it hurts to think, sometimes my skin is pink, the cats just play all day, I wish that I could stay. Eating with you under the sun, eating with you seems like fun. Sometimes it’s an early day, the rabbits won’t go away, broken mirrors around my street, keep away all the people to meet. I wish that you could stop. Sometimes I do too. Sometimes I stop for you. Under the ground we walk, people have begun to talk. Ever since that day on the beach I could never have guessed that I would be here now, thrown in to a world where no one sees or hears, but no one ever gets out. I’ve had it with this place, I need to go home. Cold – I’ve inspected too many units, on a day like today. You’ve inspected me too closely, and I know you’ll never hold me. I’m living out every last drop hoping and searching for a way for it to stop, I feel so cold. I am quitting and I’m leaving, I can’t take another day like today. And you’ll support me, and you’ll cheer me, you won’t force me, force me to stay. I need to get away from here, before you find out all my fears. I feel so cold. I am walking, and I’m running, and I’m looking for something. Tell me something, and you’re quiet, and I saw you, and you stop it. I’ve been looking in the mirror for hours, and I do not sleep well. I feel so cold. I am laying on the sofa, and I won’t get up for no one. And my head says that I’m wasting, and he’s lying, and he’s praying. Crumble down the riding man, he will hold me when he can. I feel so cold. I have given up on you now, and I’m rolling and I’m crawling, and you’re sleeping and avoiding, all the things I say to you. I’m living out every last drop hoping and searching for a way to stop. And I fell so cold. Jenny was – Jenny was just a girl, she didn’t like this world. Jenny say she’s okay, but we know it’s not that way. Jenny won’t come to me, cuz I just couldn’t see, Jenny went to marble street, but there was nothing there for her. Jenny was taken away, she won’t come home today, Jenny was in the wall, Jenny was very small. I’m not sure what she did there, I’m sure it was nothing that hurt you. Jenny was taken away, I know that I should say goodbye. Jenny saw what you couldn’t see, then she was taken away from me. You never know if she was right, there’s always things in the middle of the night. And way up on the hill, I’m not gonna take my pills, the clouds will rain on my head, I promise you, is what she said. And Jenny say that it’s okay, she wasn’t listening anyway. And Jenny say that it’s nice here, there is no people so there is no mirrors. Jenny was taken away, and she was happy that you could say, that you never missed her anyway, and the people you know are the same. Jenny sings me a song, and it was perfect, nothing wrong, Jenny was showing why, it’s okay if no one cries. Jenny was taken away. You know that it’s okay now, everything is perfect and you know how, and Jenny sings a song for me. I can feel myself – I can feel myself, I’m the one who knows. I can steal myself, behind you in our rows. It’s like a leather belt so tight that I can’t breath, I ask you to stay, but you just leave. And we’ve been wrapped up tight, and the rain is hot tonight. I can feel myself, I’m crashing down, just like I was told, and now there is no sound. You lost my mind, you feel my breath, you are so kind, forever after death. Twist around you until I fit, burn down my house while I sit. There is no way to end, there is no way for me, I can smell what we have done, you are all that I see. Please shake my hand, there is no lies, there is still no end, and nobody dies. And I need your forgiveness in a time like this, you just try to keep me with your meat flavored kiss. Tumble down the marble home – And you know that I’m your man, I will save you whenever I can. Talk to people and they talk back, fell like putting them in a sack. You look quite friendly and I do too, this is what we have to do. Call Eugene and hook me up, we’ll get it finished with lots of luck. Baby doll is always there too, she’s got a job, she knows what to do. And we sit down and drink her tea, I made a picnic for you and me. Crumble down the marble home, it’s the only home you know. Tumble down the marble home, it’s a home that we like to show. Crumble down the marble home, it was built but built too slow. Tumble down the marble home, and in the end we still won’t know. And you know that I’m your man, ride my bicycle when I can. We go to dinner and order fish, I blow on you and make a wish. The people here look like rats, even Mr.Teddy is afraid of bats. I like to dance in the park, and I will leave, on your mark. Crumble down the marble home, it’s the only home you know. Tumble down the marble home, it’s a home that we like to show. Crumble down the marble home, it was built but built quite slow. Tumble down the marble home, and in the end we still won’t know. I’m in the back of a Cadillac, and I’m never gonna come back to this town, Jack. And I’m wishing and singing, and singing your song. And I would join you but it would take too long. Gazelle man – I look down at your boots, they are something from a dream. I never knew why you’re glass eye reflects everything but my cream. And you know that I can’t lie, and you know that I’m too shy, to live underground with you and sometimes there'’ nothing i can do that pleases you. It’s just a piece of wood, nothing like you thought it should. But sometimes like I said before, would you like me to take you to the candy store. Take a look around, I hope that you’re friend gets found. He built a boat from Popsicle sticks and tape and went away to find his fate. Home is burning, home is burning, and I’m the gazelle man. I look at my reflection when I can. But you are still standing there, asking me what the hell I mean. And I am jumping and your eyes don’t see my cream. You look beautiful, in a spacey kind of way. And I know what you will say. Stop it, stop it, stop it, and I can’t think no more. And I’ll take you and hold you and put you in my mouth like a kitty cat, or a vampire bat. But you feel like cream and you smell like cream, and you won’t see it at all. Free to cut up baby’s teeth, baby wants to go to a show, everyone is clapping for you, and everyone is alone tonight. One more one more song, and it is done forever, it is gone. And it hurts like a dolphin chewing on my soul. Save me, save me, I scream to her. And she sleeps though it all. I went to town, to buy a gown, to put on the clown, who gave me a crown of bacon and hate. And her feet are all crooked and covered in plastic, and I’m the gazelle man, love me, I’m the gazelle man. 
a day on marble street 2002

Wire Woman – I’m gonna lock it down. Chain it to a home made raft. Kick it in the river full of blood and teeth. It will sink to the bottom and stay, she laughed. I need no explanation, not any more, every thing you wrote is propaganda and it’s thick and I love it, and I need it, to get myself back up. I opened my eyes in a boutique. And bought you the short black wig. And you gave it to the wire woman, and you danced with Victorian pigs. But it’s still all at the bottom. Being eaten by vampire fish. I sat naked with the plaster face. Nailed my hands to feet and wished. If you make that face too long, she said, you will stay like that forever. So I made it as long as I could and dress the wires up in leather. Because the wire woman, spat up teeth and chunks of meat. All cradled up in a leather corset. Her hand are nailed to feet. She cried for it for half a month, she wished it to come back. I spun around with nursery rhymes, and lived within my back pack. Focus – She sat up in attention in an old wooden chair. When the boy they all hated started cutting her hair. I’ll kill you she said, you know that I can. Then do it, he begged, I’m much less than a man. Night clubbing at my disco is all they ever did. Lollypop thrills for twenty is a day in hell for kids. I’m giving up every thing to you, that I never ever used. I’m on the streets in empty towns all happy and abused. And the baby’s treading water, and the paint peels off my house. So you won’t know where I am, when you’re searching for my mouth. And it’s set in stone, and locked up tight. And there’s nothing like the dawn of night. You rent my eyes, I have no sight. And it seems to me, there’s too much light. And I never wanted my eye’s to focus again. One day next week she was being fed through tubes. Riding around on dead dogs, wearing my blue Dutch shoes. All I can do is pray my prey led a horrid life. My only possessions are a box and a Turkish knife. And I pawn them for a dime, and cough up a bucket of blood. And she’s still there where I left her, dancing in the mud. And the old cat lady’s house we re-opened as a store. And you sell my clothes there, my clothes, and nothing more. She was found hiding in the cupboard containing bowls and lids. There are some things you just shouldn’t do to kids. Here on the street eating candy, getting phat, and getting randy. All I know is there is nothing there is nothing there for me. And I question you forever and doubt myself non stop. Aromatic bedroom takes me back to the top. I love it she glows, and you are less than human, and I hate me he said, and stopped all the trains. Smell it, smell it, it’s important, it’s mine. If I could I would save it in a bottle by my bed. It’s addictive, it’s honest, it’s all I ever wished. It’s the most amazing, crazing thing I made up in my head. There’s a lock on something I need to feel deep in my mouth. And the merry go round is stopping right outside my house. I pet you like a cat until you cough up the key. It’s waiting in you’re belly on a boat out in the sea. If you spit on me, I will chain you up. And I will do my best to stop a suck. Intravenous love machine is waiting up in the attic. Just behind the door, with six or seven padlocks. And we just won the lotto, and friends are calling up now. With a master’s in wheat cultivating, you always wondered how. I delight in lunar landscapes and converse with widowed birds, and I hate what I did to you, and I hate what I did to you. And the baby’s going under. And your house is burning down. And you will never find me, when I’m in another town. And the box is locked and that is that. The night is bright with burning kites, and flaming eyes, at dizzy heights. And your bloody chest from all my bites. I never wanted my eyes to focus again. Alcoholic Bottle Dress Blues – In an ancient bottle of musk and fruit, I never wanted to wear that suit. Stitched together with daffodil lies, while the smoke in my room starts burning my eyes. And you are the one who has that dress. It was never mine, but I don’t love it any less. Black as the sky was when my youth died, in that bottle, whispering stories and lies. I’ll beg for forgiveness until I crumble down. And I’ll know you for at least that time. And you’ll walk as far as I let you slip, and I know all my possessions aren’t mine. I crawl inside you like I’m blue, and I feel you, like I am you. I swear to you, I know you, and I wear you, just like you do. I wore it she screams as the car pulls off. In the gutter I wore it, I wore it, it’s lost. Some people just don’t understand at all. Some people just hate you. A drunken rage takes me to a pool, and I press my face in the water. And I drown in a foreign forest, and I never had a daughter. I like the color of your skin, I never said that I don’t like blue. I pray for one day when sixteen is gone, and tomorrow is a painted you. Bind my arms to a lake of sores, and stop me before I hate too much. Thank you for looking at me, and thank you for my alcohol crutch. I Am Ashamed of All My Dust – And I’m coming down, and my legs are weak. And it seem so clear what exactly I have done. Because I have no faith and I planted one tree. Who has split in two in an old corner room. I’ll save your life and push your swing. And I’ll never lie, and I’ll never sing. And he sat back down in a broken chair. And mosquitoes fly past, and they think too much. Where is my dust? And where is my mate? And what is the time? And what is the date? It’s tighter and tighter, and no one can breathe. And I want you here, and I want you to leave. And I used to be simple and I never had to think. And the dust storm is over, and you always, always dance. And I’m climbing up and the sewer is his home. And I’m good enough, and I’m good enough for you. I visit all these people, and I never know their names. And seems so worthless, and I feel so ashamed. I haven’t understood for years, and I’m sickly and old, and I’d like to sell my soul. But you can’t be Robert Johnson when you’re made of blood and piss. I can’t be Robert Johnson, and I’ll never be more than this. I’ll break your legs in shopping malls, and sleep with you until she calls. And start my day all over again. And crop your pictures ‘till there is no men. And this day next year, I’ll be gone. And you’ll stand here, with velvet on. All the Good Things – After every thing is said, my life’s adventure sleeps within my head. And it seems like it was bright, and all the good things happen at night. And nothing is ever gonna end. Stretch my arms out fill my boots with lead. I walk past wall that say I am dead, I love it when you smell like me she said. I’m pressing buttons, stealing all my friends. I lost my insides, but it all depends. Keep my slice small, I won’t eat it all. And nothing seems to matter any more, and everything is waiting at the door. I read the words you never want to see. I bled till there was nothing left of me. I walk down stairs, you fall around the floor, the cats are scared, they run right out the door. Snap pictures of a blue wall in the dark. Sell them to the homeless in the park. With the money I can do most anything. And I’ll make more with fantastic marketing. At night she won’t stop staring in my head. I can’t move, can’t get my self up now, she said. My skin is dry, so cracked I bleed. And in the end, the night is all I need. The Pink House – All alone in a theater, with my butter covered fingers. You lick me clean, you covered up all my mirrors. Sinking down, I’m staging all this. And I hate the rich, but they named my kids. And a mechanical horse broke down outside. Out here in the rain, if you could, you would have died. And an ancient house, all pink and green was our only refuge to wash us clean. I face your skin, as it burns so bright. And I need your bones, and I want your fright. And I gave it all up, with a nod and a smile. And smashed up your kittens, and I walked for a while. Cuz there’s nothing left of the man that’s me. I’m you frightened daughter, with eyes that can’t see. You look good in my mine, down to my tree. And there’s nothing there but you and me. And we roll within traffic, and smoke all night. And the moon cries out and my skin is white. I burn your face with my scientific hands. Even with new eyes I can’t see. And there is no place, there is no place for me. I love you in my camera and I need to sweep our steps of all the autumn leaves. I’ve got no speech that’s great enough to bail me out of all this self taught stuff. A lie is still a lie, whether black or white. And I’ll bind you to my mind every day, and every night. Cutting Down Trees – Never did my mind stop contracting quite as fast as the day she held the hand of all that’s lost. I fell in to a sky of velvet curtains, and cried as hard as every thing we did. The people we knew were all so sad when the clouds poured milk on to our hands. I found out finding isn’t like I thought it should, and laughed out to your lips just like I would. Save me is all she screamed for months, and I heard you like nails in my eyes. I said good bye but couldn’t let you go, and looked back at all the innocent ki8ds. I slipped you something you didn’t want to take, and wrapped your arms around my home. You taught me how to stop my hate, I packed up all my daughter’s special stones. I walk a path behind the screaming girl, cutting down any trees I might have seen. And I look at you and see it’s the end, and I never knew the box to be so sweet. So I set my clock to five AM, and stop my heart with broken arms. And drip your milk upon my eyes, and never, never stop my tears. I covered you in blankets made of ice, she walked so slow you could see her face. It looked like a girl like you, where all the world sees a different memory… and I read your pamphlet on the beach, and I burned your hair and the fire licked my feet. I used to love that pile of blood soaked hats, worn with pride on my head, only at night, is what he said. And a picnic attended by no one by me, was disturbed during tea by the sound of falling trees. So I scared away the goats, and scared away my tears, and scared away the crows, who scared away my fears. And I didn’t seem to stop, and I ran on bloody stumps. And my body broke down, kept awake with wires and pumps. And I’m trapped in this box, and I’m trapped in this box, and he turned off my dreams, and I’m trapped in this box… I’m In Love With Hamburgers And Diet Coke – I would like to sit on the ground, as close to the dirt as I can, and then I think I’ll roll around, and never wash again. I’m in love with hamburgers, hamburgers and diet coke. And I walk for 37 miles, and I will always smoke. Leather isn’t an animal, when the circus stars are you. And I’ll never send my daughter there, and the swimming pool is red, not blue. I heard everything tonight, I heard what you can’t do. I gave up my sight tonight, and bought Pandora’s stew. I love these things you do with cats. I send out my best and gifts. I switched clothes in the bathroom, while you were changing shifts. Crawl inside my mouth and sleep, a million dreams I’ll lose. I’ll cry a kitten’s cry for you, and drink all of your booze. We dance on the highway, getting mowed down, every single night. I’ll sleep with you in a tree house, and lick the whites of your sight. Aspartame eats my brain, I’ll never be the same, and I’ll never grow a moustache, I’ll never change my mind, and I hate what you have done with me, cuz I don’t have the time. Pails – I don’t know what day it is, we spin our bodies on these nail, the numbing flow of blood, softly drips in to these pails. I carry them all day long I never spill a drop. Like rusted bodies on my stairs, my walking never stopped. I stop to rinse my velvet leggings, I slide across your door. I see you hammered across my street begging me for more. I slept a thousand catnaps, slung dreams across your back. I need that sticky cloth to clean out my empty sack. Never did the pails of mine ever dare to run dry. I gave it to someone, someone who looked like me. And I never spilt a drop, and you never washed me clean. And I forgave you for knowing and stretched your face out wide. Tear strips out of my back and gave up till I died. Pale skinned girl flash velvet, nocturnal bliss. I forever melt your eyeballs, forever eat your kiss. I Love Cheese – I love cheese oh yes I do, I love cheese and so do you. I love cheese and it’s all right, cheese is god and he flies a kite. Come on, lets get together and lets love cheese. Me and the gang are down by the camp fire, eating some cheese, me and the gang are down by the lake, eating some cheese. It doesn’t matter where, and it doesn’t matter why, lets sing about cheese and have some fun! Slowing –I got blood on the letter you wrote to your mother, telling her that you love her, and how you wish I would burn. Take care on your way, you won’t come home today, and I wish I could pray, but I have no concern. And I stumble up stairwells, and slice open my knuckles, and I’ll tear out my insides, and I’ll do this for you. I might beg you for nothing, I’ll cry like I’m dying, like my heartbeat is slowing, and you know I’m like glue. I sweat buckets of kittens, and I’m milk like I’m younger, and I’m young like a carousel, and I’m the top on a fox. And I fuck like I’m living out fantasies of Camelot, and you smell like you’re Guenevere, and you’re trapped in that box. And I hate you, I love you, I love all that you do. Please cut me and lick me, and hold me forever. And I hate how I’m slowing, and I’m crawling and screaming, and living out nightmares, and I eat almost never. I take you and hide you, in trees that are hollow. And clean you and feed you and comb out your hair. Cuz there’s spinning and madness, and I can’t think about this, and he’s peeling and shedding, and there’s wood every where. And I’m building and building, and finishing nothing. I take breaks like they’re water, pound nails in my knees. And you just finished walking forever, and you’re falling, with me in to ice cream, you cut off you’re sleeves. And I’m nothing, I’m ending, you hold me I’m slowing. I’ll never stop screaming, and screaming like burning, down trees that I’m losing, in buckets of lizards, that I kiss with babies, I love you in cat ears. The Box – And there it was, sitting there, like all I ever ran away from. On the side of the road like a boy with legs apart, and a big gulp balanced ever so carefully on her knee, like the whole world depended on it not tipping over. It was high school all over again, 50% lamb’s rum, 50% fountain pop. An empty mickey, and a puddle of bubbling soda lay behind the convenience store at the end of the block. No care was put in to her hair as she brushed it from those eyes, those eyes that could see so much more than any telescope he ever thought of buying from one of the hundreds of catalogs that lay forgotten in his basement. Thankfully, not everything in that basement was as forgotten as them. That’s where she decided to go, on that night, there hadn’t been any rain for months, yet it smelled like it had just stopped moments ago, or rather it did before the train went by. Stopping her for no more than 10 minutes, no less than 5. It raced down the tracks begging her to follow, in her I want to be tossed out nylons and a skirt that could have belonged to a princess, be it one who ruled the apartment block where she used to live. Back then there were scores of children on the street playing games, starting fights, playing music, no… it didn’t make a lot of sense. She barely noticed that she had arrived, he was there to open the door. There was no fighting here, but the sheer volume of games and music would leave most in silent awe for the whole visit. She on the other hand seemed merely to expect it. Like it was hers to begin with. There was no noise, just what we heard. That wasn’t noise, what was that? She asked with a tone that would make most lose any appreciation for what ever is was that their dream held for them. Is that something in the ceiling? I know it must be, there is no floor… well none they could see. It was all just so run of the mill until she chose to go to the basement, her discarded big gulp cup on the shelf above the fire place, with the taxidermede owl looking at it like an oasis in Nevada. The steps were old, but made no sound, and at the bottom is where she was locked. With all the good things, always night, with no noise, and deafening sound. Into the box is where she slept, never to leave, with no lock in sight… I’m sick of your lizards, I’m sick of your trees, I’m sick of your sticks, your surgery boy, your boneless leg dog, jubalee street, and now this damn box. I’ve had it with all your childish nonsense. Squid from hell - I am a squid from hell, I don't mind you saying, That my face is Blue and green. Mommy was a squid and daddy was Satan, My face is Blue and green. My friends like to ride their bikes Underwater whenever, whenever they like. I don't know why they do this thing, I guess there's no reason, It makes them sing. I am a squid from hell I don't mind you saying, That my face is Blue and green. 
the box 2001

Flash Bulbs You see the people on the stage you know they are dancing just for you, you see the faces in the crowd you forgot just what you should do. I know it’s hard for you, I know it’s hell for you. Give me your self-esteem I’m the one who’ll scrub you clean. You know I’m here for all you see, and I will give you everything you’ll be. The dancers stare at you, the eyes they burn through you. And the flash bulbs flicker away, and you know you’re not gonna stay. I ran as fast as you could crawl, I chased you in to the stair. Never did your house look so old. I know a dusty town, I know a circus there. But all the streets are gone. It’s all just dripping away, and there’s nothing more to my head. Broken eggs all over the floor, and no mop could clean it all. For an anniversary I gave you a bowl. Fish and birds conceive children that you will never meet. Forget all you said to me, and pardon the mess, I like my past. There was some liturature that I read once, it said something about the sun. it disappeared one day and made way for new thoughts. He wiped off his bare feet and put them where they would be safe. I never really knew that girl, and wrapped electrical tape around her breasts. And the flash bulbs flicker away, and that’s the smell that’s not going to stay. Chopped up screws and a wire in my head. Flash bulbs exploding until I’m dead. Come Down I can talk I can scream, you were all present in my holocaust dream. And I’m worried reasons from the gates, neighbors call from garden’s glory and jeremy cares about what he hates, and I’m sitting on an old box of pizza I know there is a reason, I fell out of my father’s tree you picked up all my broken pieces. Please take my ragged fingers and place them in your mouth, you saint, I begged you to hold me and reserved my bottled paint, I can’t stop paying your bills twist around bottle cap cat skills, powdered stripper in a reckless van I learned to over restrict your deadly chills. Saving mercury was too bold and went cross country, with a midget and a horse I drew up on empty, it was a cold metal bucket full of requests for you mind, and I seem to remember that the twentieth century was mine, a biped princess with a tongue of gold she slipped me a twenty by far, I need to sleep now is all she said and the baby seal will end up dead, up and down the circus town with a rope made of souls, crying non stop and eating almost never shoveling sand and shoveling coal, and she will never come down, she will never come down, she will never come around this town again. Eating Breakfast On A Train You wake up your in a room, everything around you. I am the cat under your bed, that’s what she said. The carpets are all wet I lap it up with my tongue. Don’t stare at me. I don’t give a little fuck I guess I’m out of luck. The baby whistles in the wind, come on lets take the bus. My chin is itchy, scratch it now, have we arrived? Oh yes we have, he said, and how. Eating breakfast on a train, do you understand you are insane. I walk along and have some fun, it’s not that hard when you’re just one. I lock the dog up in the shed, come back tomorrow, my dog is dead. Its so funny how things work, I got touched and slapped the jerk. My revenge ain’t over yet, no it’s not my little pet. Walk away, oh walk away. I walk away, my eyes I left. Left behind so I don’t see, I don’t see that bitch in front of me. fucking play this fucking game, the rules for me just aren’t the same. You wake up you’re in my room, everything around you is turning blue. Under Arches (written by Elaine Boyling) He was hiding under arches, In the ivy, Slithered down the steps, Weather beaten stone, Faced the day and claimed it cold, She sat silent in the window, And the air hung heavy all around, She sipped at lemon water, Pressed flowers with her thumb, Forget-me-nots, They dried in the window box, No one ever told her why, He left them for her, In threads of nettle hairs, He spun his wings, Bound with the sound of frenzy, Peaches and mint sauce, In the wood paneled halls, A solemn degradation, As the sun slipped out of sight, The ivy crept across the window, Its tendrils on her pane, As he leaned on gray stone pillars, And curved his spine around, Like the ivy, Under arches, He held a tiny bird in his fist, Felt its little heart explode with fear, Taming out its flight, Taming out its breath, She slipped herself inside a book, Held adventure in her mouth, Her world flickered sepia, Such a restless little soul, If danger is a notion, It slipped behind the pages, Tamed and brimming up with fantasy, He pulled her out into his world. She slept amongst the ivy, Curled and pale upon the feathers, And he watched her breathing, Caught and eating from his palm. Lake of Seeds And Flowers Magic marker is the way to your soul I have a bowl of glowing coal. That get you out of the house, when all the babies in your dreams are gone. I never wash my hair and I don’t even care, about the state of the nation, or the people always talking on the radio station. It’s about that horse, the one that’s hanging from the noose. And why I breathe in water and the mule’s on the loose. I could give you my shirt. And I could dance with your toys. I sterilize the girls, and spit on all the boys. And I’ll never get it right, but I’ll never really try. And I’ll never save your life, but I’ll never let you die. And I’ve gotten so old that I don’t think that I can stop. I cut off the dog’s three legs, cuz I won’t let him walk. The panty hose that you used to wear are all tangled in my hair, and I never thought you would bark, but now I’m sleeping deep in the park. I stripped you down with steel and knocked you down in to your meal. We ate the crackers and we spit out the soup, then we took a long drive around the loop. And it’s the same with you, and it’s the same with all you do, and I’ll never know what is true in the lake of seeds and flowers. My Last Day I’m sick of setting it all up and I need my trip. And I’m gonna visit forever, and I’m never gonna come back. I have to laugh at these people cuz I don’t know what to do, and why did I write this down, and where are you. My vision is blurred and it’s not gonna stop. And the pain is always there, and I know I’m gonna drop. Today is my last day but I live it like forever, like I have time for all the things I crave, but I know I never will. I saw you once, and I saw you again, and everything we did it didn’t seem to end. And the one I tried to make, it tore me apart, and it took away my two souls, and demagnetized my head. I will never give you anything, cuz I’ll never be aloud, and the summer is too hot, and I passed out in the crowd. She handed me a pamphlet, it told me about my pants, it talked about mars, and all the things we never did. I’ll never give it up, it means more than straps, clean and leather, I stood in your door. Covered me in icicles, I covered you in more. Your full-length pants, and a head made out of booze. I stay with you all night, cuz there’s nothing more to lose. All the animals in your house are all caged up. And drift like wood, and fill our socks with candy. I gave you thirty reasons why the monkey’s on the loose. And why this is my last day and this is what I choose. I’ll never learn to be happy, but I don’t think I’ll cry, and I’ll never be complete, and you’ll never say goodbye. Cuz this is my last day, and the sun is kind of strange. I’m sick of monotonous drilling, and you’re just out of my range. I miss you my dearest, I’ll see you in due time. I’ll give you all my restraints, and let you go home. Dark City I don’t know why I woke up this morning, and the sky is always gray. I don’t wanna believe I’m human, today is the same old day. I don’t think I have a future, and I’m forced to forget my past. The monotony is like breakfast, and the lake is burning fast. I’m sick of being sick, I’m sick of all the dark. I drink to stop my mind, she’ll never leave her mark. She fell out of her tree, and shoved her fist though me. She drank up all her tea, removed her eyes so she can’t see. She stumbled around my dark city. And I can see you now and the strap around your neck. And I can be just how you want me to stay. And I can stop myself, and I can feel your mouth. And I won’t say how you did all you could do to stop me. Trip To Monday Drive yourself to the doctor’s house, and never give him your money. Peel back your skin, and scratch and win, and cover your scabs in honey. You never stop spinning around and there is never any one around. You grind your face in to the ground, and stop hearing all the sound. You woke up on the drive back home, and you didn’t think you could come. The Cardinal lived in sin with the gnome, and your eyes burnt out from the sun. You spread it out like a calico cat, and you went to sleep on your back. You dreamed about a burlap sack, and all the other things you lack. So a trip to the dump was improvised, and it took a lot longer than you realized, when she was done the priest was surprised, and your whole damn life was satirized. I was built a cake for your birthday, and the candles burnt down your bed. And fall began in May, and I ran away from all you said. Your home os covered in rings of smoke, you look blue in the TV light. I closed my eyes and wait for something, I bite my hair and the blood tastes right. Styrofoam Vacation My trip took me through a valley, and led me to your alley. Disrespect the clothes you wore, and pulled you in through my door. You seen it. I been there. I broke my leg on your stairs. I never regret you. Styrofoam vacation and the leather you pulled through. I pulled on my best night shoes, and emptied my pockets of the things I could lose. I met you in car wash, blister in my eye, and I couldn’t see the headlight. Suffocate the Mongoloid. Ran so fast I lost her in the night. I’m wasted, apocalyptic. Never need your mirror, so I don’t fuck my lip stick… never could I want more, you burnt my house down and built me a door. I pulled on my pants, and never let go. Cut off my thumbs, and missed your show. Stepped out of the driver’s side, gave you one look and then I lied. Fresh air is the death of me, but I finally arrived at the foot of the sea. Rolled around in the back of your street, feeling like the rocks that I started to eat. I wish you would cut your throat, stumble around like a lunatic goat. I never promised you all the things you do, I just kick it in the spine and walk to the zoo. I gave it up and rolled on out, underneath the water you started to shout… Tomorrow well I’ve finally arrived, I’ve been waiting my whole life. Scissors in my mouth to get here, a train of never ending strife. And I can’t stop turning around, I’m so dizzy I clutch your shoes. I must have walked a million miles an drank a lake of booze. The night is black and dead the way I need it to be. At the end of the street I go in, and lick your face up in the tree. Tomorrow I’ll go back. Tomorrow I’ll go home. Tomorrow I’ll be sane. Tomorrow I won’t roam. Tomorrow I’ll be yours. Tomorrow’s last kiss is, tomorrow’s final breath. Tomorrow I leave this. And the sun must go down, and the traffic lights have to stop. And the day must always end, and the leaves must always drop. And I look at her mouth, and she says I must go back. And the moon is full and red, and I walk along the tracks. The trip was all I needed, I did it by myself. And I didn’t need a guide. The morning’s sun is on my shelf. And I prayed for this, and I know where I came from, and the dream was in my arms, and I prayed that tomorrow would never come. Lizard Girl She said she walks to the hall we know she will fall, Multi-flavored woman call. That was that and that was all. We search for a way to see. See you in my mind you see me. Inside your cat is where I hide my key. Dodge ball woman is who I be. Your shirts are all messed up. Your pants are at your house. I kept your dress my pretty pup. I saw your cats my little mouse. You made me hate the sun. Wander though an empty house. Cut your legs off, all but one. You know what I mean, cause I’m your louse. Someone said I ripped your glass. I said I love it, I love your ass. Picture your side walk. I was happy in my old class. Please give me your drain me. Lizard girl I need it. You’re the hat for my head. Sugar girl coat my shit. Lizard girl stick your head in. Lizard girl keep me up. Lizard girl and me. Lizard girl and me… By My Tree I saw you run up to me, that’s when I knew I should be, right here by my tree. I looked up at the stars and that’s how I found myself here, and that’s why I will never leave. I know I won’t go far, I’ll stay where my babies grow, so much I will never see. I know you, I know what I need to do. I saw the rain turning blue, and my legs won’t let me move. Right here by my tree. Please don’t show me that, all the thing I didn’t know. I close my eyes until I am blind. And I’ll never grow up. And I’ll never be old. Chances are we’ll never die. Right here by my tree. All words by Blaise Kolodychuk, except as indicated © 2000 SC Music 
trip music 2000

Night Driving Oxidized metal fills my soul My cracker jack suicide is in your bowl Night driving could fill this hole But I don’t have a licence, and I don’t have a goal You kiss me like I was dead You know my future’s in your head I gotta get away is all she said My body is wasted, and my mind is filled with lead All I need to know is that you’ll be back All I do is live out of this sack A future and a life is what I lack If I keep this up I’m gonna crack I fell like pulling out my heart It’s what I should have done straight from the start I don’t believe we will be apart I don’t wanna live my life through my art Pull out another Marlborough light Night driving, nothing’s in sight I know I’ll never be all right Every day of my life I have to fight And my sticks are always in threes I won’t find my way to the tree I spit on the people I try to please Nothing’s gonna happen in your dreams I have to keep living so I can wait forever I keep loseing touch and you keep getting clever I walk around the streets in a useless endevour We made a promise that we’d never sever You need me like I need night driving We are gonna leave but we won’t be arriving All my life I’ve been striving And I want you. Stilt Man Like a garden gnome She came home With a smile so bright It lit up the night She asked the sticks just what they ment And the change in the cat has all been spent Home from labour and all rings daisy And the next door neighbor thinks she’s crazy But the animal trainer gave her up To the man on the stilts, Who raised her up. And he liked to play with babies And then they had one But the stilt man didn’t like him And he bought him a gun And baby took a bath But she couldn’t get clean And the buckets of swallows Were all in her dream And the upsidedown tigers Who never like the show Showed up to the door And the stilt man had to go So here’s the little girl Who is free from all her eggs She gets home so happy That she cut up all her legs And the smile is always present And so is all the blood But the stilt man’s in the tigers Cuz he did all that he could. Porno-Perno-Pie I got the chickadee style And I need a piece of ass I want a proper microphone There’s a class I need to pass A group of fucking teenages Loiter on my lawn Spitting up their slurpees Like the wrath of Khan Pissing on your lover Is such a groovy theme I walk up to the poster boy And tell him he’s a dream Rubber ducky marshmallow And the porno-perno-pie All the girls just love him Cuz he’s such a super guy Electrocute my mother And gave the lizards up You sat down at my card table And put your pennies in a cup. Tree of no reason I force myself To believe in the tree Even my power To hope is dying I walk along And the forest is burning The only way to the tree Stairs me in the face again I don't think I'll ever Find the tree That we know so well The only way there Is straight through Hell Your fucking bitch mom Won't let me find Nobody knows my baby's on my mind The Siamese cat Is deaf and blind But at the tree of reason everyone's kind No one can help me find the tree. The whole damn quest is up to me And every body thinks I'm out of my mind and I will not get there with my made up time And the tree, it is just for me And the tree, it is just for me And the tree of reason, I wont see Because every one I know won't let me The tree, it is just for me The tree, it is just for me The tree of reason won't find me Because no one will just let me be... Turtle’s Age And she said she was saving me I don’t know who I’m supposed to be Like it or not I’m breaking apart The storie’s so long, don’t know where to start And she said she won’t hurt no one That’s the way it started That’s the way it’s done I feel so sick and my flesh is burnt Been riding around for a turtle’s age And I don’t like it And I don’t like that I never understood why it wasn’t my cat And she said it always takes a lot more But that’s all I got cuz I’m so poor I went in the dumpster Looking for rape But I only found popsicle sticks and tape I took them home to see what I could do I fixed everything But I couldn’t fix you I could finnish your sentence Before I knew your name I can diagnose your illness Befor I know about your pain You can dig my grave Before you know what’s in my head And I’ll never leave this town cuz I roll over dead I covered myself In a thousand autum leaves Cried a pint of blood And cut off all my sleeves I rode a mangled pony To the house on the hill I thought about revenge And all the ways to kill Never did I think What I didn’t need Would be so needed You burned a million acres And the ground you then re-seeded I gave you everything I know I could I wish that you gave it all You weigh as much as wood And I couldn’t even call Closure I’ve been wrecked by you I’ve been fucked by you I’ve been left by you I’ve been sucked by you I don’t wanna do What I’m supposed to do And I’ve been wrecked by you Your Pandora stew My mind is blurred And I vomit non-stop And I gave you my word About this potential drop The anatomy Of the way we see Is like dissapointment in the morning And alcohol by three The rain washed away All the blood on my sticks And I started again And I planned out more tricks And I gutted out the one Who I left on the bridge Who’s been painted over twice In my drunken pilgrimidge I hate every one I spit on the sun And I never have fun And I’ll do it again The dog is spinning around And he has no head Will there be a story to tell After I am dead Cuz I keep doing what I do Even if it’s not for you And maybe I’ll never sleep again The addiction of eating will surely end Crawling Crawling up to the temple of no meaning She saw what they said was god On the alter she lay bleeding Her ideas were questioned in our pod I was born to make you cry I was born to watch you die Memories fade as years go by I know in my soul it is all a lie Cuz the things you say, don’t ring true And the things I do, I did for you All my life I knew your name I just want to see your shame He walked to them and asked just why He did all the things to let them die And why does he feel so good When he destroyed all he could She crawls to him then runs away Not knowing truths or ecstasy I can’t stand throwing out your name My home just drips with all your pain I wear a vice around my neck And look to moons for all your head I saw her run away from death Into arms that I once had. Boarder Menu I love you my dearest So where did you go I sat here waiting months And cancelled my show Stumble up the walk way He wore his finest dress And the three way streets of marble Were all so damn impressed I smell somethi <br> </td> </tr> </table> <!----MuSeeks.com Links WHERE's THE FONT?----> <table width=400 border=0 cellpadding=3 cellspacing=0> <tr> <td colspan=2 > <p> <TABLE WIDTH="400" BORDER="0" CELLSPACING="0" CELLPADDING="5"> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE" > <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Artist name:</B></FONT><BR> fukachuk egg machine</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE" > <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"> <!-- <B>Total Listens:</B> (old mp3.com plus MuSeeks.com listens)</FONT><BR> --> </FONT> </TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Music style:</B></FONT><BR> Kooky</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Famous Similar Artist(s):</B></FONT><BR> you</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Artist Description:</B></FONT><BR> take a pound of liver and squeeze it through your teeth</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Musical influences:</B></FONT><BR> Lizards and Trees and Sticks in Threes</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Artist History:</B></FONT><BR> long and sad </FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Members:</B></FONT><BR> Blaise Kolodychuk</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Press reviews:</B></FONT><BR> pants </FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Instruments:</B></FONT><BR> Whatever you got...</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Album Names:</B></FONT><BR> lots</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Artist's CD Sales Webpage:</B></FONT><BR> http://scentertainment.t35.com/</FONT></TD> </TR> <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Web site & Contact Info:</B></FONT><BR> http://scentertainment.t35.com/</FONT></TD> </TR> <!-- <TR BGCOLOR="#EEEEEE"> <TD><FONT FACE="Arial" SIZE="-1"><FONT COLOR="#008000"><B>Extras:</B></FONT><BR> </FONT></TD> </TR> --> <TR> <TD> </TD> </TR> </TABLE> </td> <tr> </table> </td> <td width=3> <img src="http://www.MuSeeks.com/images/blank.gif" width=3 height=1> <!-- spacer.gif --> </td> <!--right side--> <td width=395 valign="top"> <table width="100%"> <tr bgcolor=#CCCC99> <td colspan=2 class=ttlbartxt> <phrase><b>Artist Extras</b></phrase></font> </td> </tr> <tr valign=top> <td class=small align=right width=10 > <li> </li> </td> <td> <phrase><a href="http://scentertainment.t35.com/" target="_blank">Artist's web site and Contact Info</a></phrase> </td> </tr> <tr valign=top> <td class=small align=right> <li> </li> </td> <td> <phrase><a href="http://www.MuSeeks.com/production_music">License this material</a></phrase> </td> </tr> <tr valign=top> <td class=small align=right> <li> </li> </td> <td> <phrase><a href="http://www.MuSeeks.com/cgi-bin/list-tracks-reg2.cgi?genre=Alternative">Other Alternative tracks</a></phrase> </td> </tr> <tr valign=top> <td class=small align=right width=10 > <li> </li> </td> <td> <phrase><a href="http://www.MuSeeks.com/cgi-bin/list-artists.cgi?city=&state=" target="_blank">Other Artists in , </a></phrase> </td> </tr> <tr valign=top> <td class=small align=right> <li> </li> </td> <td> <phrase><a href="http://scentertainment.t35.com/">Go to Artist's CD Sales Webpage</a></phrase> </td> </tr> </table> <!----Playlist----> <table width=392 cellpadding=3 cellspacing=0 border=0 > <tr bgcolor=#CCCC99> <td colspan=2 > <!-- NOTE NO BACKSLASH BEFORE QUOTES, STILL WORKS! 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